January 2010
37 posts
We lie and act fine to feel more in control in a...
carriecakes:
(via cindyxlove)
random rambling.
it’s like everytime I think i’m good, you come around &I just fall into bits of pieces. i lose control of my grip of reality, &i fall into this hole that i feel like i can’t escape from. & once again, its like you get me to go back to all of it once again, back to where i started from. it’s like a never ending cycle.. i feel alright, i’m over it, you come...
Yeah, whateves.
Really? that was really unnecessary. but whatevers, you can say what you wanna say about me, call me whatever name you want to call me. I DONT CARE. i know what i am, i know who i am, &you don’t. &i dont care. But if you wanna call me out on shi1t, PLEASE make sure you get your facts straight, otherwise you just make an ass of yourself.
I still..
make wishes at 11:11 &Kiss my knee(:
Well now I’m told that this is life &pain is just a simple compromise.
Stressing.
i feeeel soo overwhelmed with all this college; financial aid/scholarships/admissions blahblah. i feel swamped. i thought Senior Year was supose to be a kickback year, but it’s the antitheisis of it. i feel like always have something i need to do, &i feel like i just want a break from everything but if i take a break everything will just pile up. ahh, &i’ve been tripping about...
i guess.
Sometimes, some things are just better left unsaid.
Stuff on my mind.
-For some odd reason, i’ve been wanting to go to dress shopping for prom lately. -Yellow/Blue/Red dress for prom? -AHhh prom is april 24 @Petco Park, i’m excited. -wonder if i’ll have a date for prom this year -I want my hair to grow 5 inches by prom. -should i start using horse shampoo/conditioner? -debating if i should dye/highlight my hair. -if so.. should i go light or dark?...
Joey makes me laugh.
Me: so, Joey how was your day?
Joey: it was intense!
Me: oh why was that?
Joey: I saved a life!
Me: DID YOU REALLY?
Joey: Noo haha i stopped a thief from stealing from our store though.
Its whatever, it's a hairflip.
“&you flip that hair until that bitch is gone.. out of your mind.” - Chris Crocker.
Misguided Ghost - Paramore.
Whatever happened to..
the whole thing about “Chicks before dicks”? It seems like you totally forgot that whole idea. its like everytime we kick it now, you focus all your attention to him, rather then our catchupseshs &whatnot. its like when we actually start talking about something &he just so happens to he txts/calls you.. you completely neglect the fact that i’m even there. I get it, you...
Oh dont worry.
I’m doing better without you.
Remember when you held my hand like you never let...
I let you see a side of me that I don’t share with anyone. Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled. Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart, I’m sorry that it wasn’t enough. So, we’ll go our own ways, And hopefully you’ll remember the things I’ve told you, Hopefully you’ll understand that everything I said was in sincerity. A...
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feeeling pretty crappy, think i’m getting sick. not a bueno day. my bag broke on me today. forgot my ap goverment book @ home, which had my math hw. and had to redo my math hw during lunch. didn’t get to pick up my new glasses today. my cardigan made my white shirt turn pink. it was oober cold. ahhhh. so over today. Thank god i don’t have 2nd period tomorrow &i get to go to...
"I Dont Look Back, Cause I'm a Forward Thinker"
fun stuff, i guess.
oh man, for the next couple week my social life will have to be put aside. For the next couple weeks til the end of February, my life will have to consist of working on Financial Aid stuff, and scholarships and essay writing. What a joy.
Everything has changed, &it’ll never be the same between us. &it kills me to know we let this happen.
“Well, I no longer believe in love. In any way shape or form, I don’t believe it...”
– (via runawaytrain) (via mylovenotes) (via carriecakes)
My Conclusion.
What i realize is that we are better off this way.. of just being friends. I think i like you alot better as my friend, than my significant other. it’s like our conversations and hang out seshs arent on that shallow level anymore.& i’m comfortable just coming over and chilling with you. it’s like we dont have to do anything at all and i feel like i’m in good company. i...
Torn.
“A part of me wants to leave you alone. A part of me wants for you to come home. A part of me says I’m living a lie. A part of me says to think it through. A part of me says I’m over you. A part of me wants to say goodbye. A part of me is asking why… A part of me wants to leave. But a part of me wants to be here with you. And everytime I think we’re over and done you...
Sometimes I wish..
that i never met you, because i never thought it would be this hard to forget you.
“You can spend minutes,hours,days,weeks or even months over-analyzing a situation;trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could’ve, would’ve happened…or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on”
“Every girl has that one boy in her life, who could call her at three in the...”
Don't think too hard if you think it hurts that...
“Me, Myself & I is all i got in the end.”
not on speaking terms
i hate that we arent talking anymore it’s been three days of silence, it’s awkward being at home, being cooped up in my room because being around you isnt the same anymore. i’m sorry about what i did. i made a mistake, wish you would just get over it.
Insomoniac
It’s 6 in the morning and I can’t seem to sleep, I’ve been tossing and turning in my bed all night and I just feel restless. This isn’t good school starts on Tuesday! How am I gonna manage to go to school if the time I wake up for school is actually the time I go to sleep? Im pretty much screwed for next semester…
random survey
ABC About You Questions
A - AVAILABLE: sureee. B - BIRTHDAY: february 3rd. C - CRUSHING ON: no body(: D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Waaaaater! E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Joanna. F - FAVORITE SONG: i dont have just one. G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Gummy bears. H - HOMETOWN: Escondido. I - IN LOVE WITH: Taylor Lautner<3! J - JUGGLE: no :/ K - KILLED SOMEONE: in call of duty. L - LONGEST CAR...
You are so AGH.
i hate how you try to always weasel your way back into my life. Really, it’s getting irritating.. i stopped talking to you for a reason, i ignore your calls/texts/messages. can you JUST LEAVE ME ALONE?! i’m sick and tired of YOUR BS! REALLY, ITS OVER between you and me, it’s been done for such a long time. i hate it when you talk to me and bring up the past, THE PAST IS THE PAST...
Tired of being told how to live my life. All i really want is to just want to LIVE my life, &find my own piece of mind.